A different week.

So, there haven't been many, well any, posts this week. It's been a little crazy.

Monday, I found out that my great aunt died, and I had to go home Tuesday for the viewing. We're all sad, but she was very sick, and as Papa said...She's resting now.

Tuesday I was gone for 9 hours for this...I made the round trip thing. it was a long drive, each way, so I got to listen to a lot of music....I realized that my career is never going to lead me to being a professional singer. This is OK, but I still LOVE belting it out in my car. It's awesome. Riding that long, and listening to that much music..I did a lot of self-reflection. It's amazing how you can hear a tune and be transported back to high school....college pre-coming out....college post coming out. And how I can remember those crushes that I had. And boyfriends. It's great-ish.

Wednesday was Patti's birthday. woo hoo, Happy, Happy Birthday, girl!

Thursday was uncork-a-cure. It was awesome. I love Darryl!

Tonight is Ken's birthday, and tomorrow is Patti's celebration. Basically, I'm not going to be lucid for the next 48 hours. yay! See you Monday.

Hey Brad

hey!!

A weekend of note...

This weekend was AWESOME! I had such a good time, and didn't even go out (no, not once!) I love weekends like that!

Friday night, Patti, Sam, and I went to Athens for a wine tasting. It wasn't as bad of a train-wreck as the last one....When a friend went and was wasted and mortified me. I love him, but I choose to never take him out in public again. Anyway, we went, and drank, and drank, and drank....ate a lot of food, then stopped at McDonalds (for more food), and then came back. It was totally a whirlwind trip, but it was soo much fun...and without the whole downtown thing, there were no scandals. Yay!

Saturday, i got my crawfish virginity taken. I LOVE crawfish now. LOVE THEM! Darryl had a huge crawfish boil at his house, so I went, and I'm a huge fan of crawfish....One of the quotes of FOREVER was right before, when I was IM-ing Rob H, and asked what I should wear, since I'm perpetually afraid of underdressing. his reply to me was something to the effect of "Robert, it's a party where people are gonna suck the ass out of crustaceans, how could you possibly underdress." There were a couple of other good quotes, too. Rob is perpetually full of them...or full of it...we'll decide.

I left Saturday PM, went home, took a nap, and went back. Completely missing Mary's and Mary-oke with Rob F, and his friends (who were fun, but...mary's....)

Sunday I went and stood in line for 1.5 hours to get a book signed by Paula Deen. I took my camrea, wore black (it's slimming) and everything, I looked cute, for my picture with Ms Deen. I asked this morbidly obese man behind me (maybe he should pick a new favorite food network star) man to take my picture...and explained my camera to him, "hold this button for a couple of seconds." He ever so (un)politely told me that he knew how to work a camera. So, when I check out and get out to the car, and am looking at my new myspace picture...I look and it's not tehre. IT"S NOT THERE. This man, this fat man, who apparently has lost the sense of touch in his chubby fingers, not to mention, sight in the viewfinder, turns out COULD. NOT. WORK. A. CAMERA. Bastard. The rest of Sunday was pretty low key, a quick trip to Filenes (got some GREAT shoes), then home, for a 2 hour nap. Then dinner, and bed...after Housewives.

Such a low key weekend. Such a fun one. I loooooovve these!!

We ARE Virginia Tech

In case you've been under a rock for the past couple of days. This is the transcript of Nikki Giovonni's Convocation address at Virginia Tech this horrendous week.

No matter where we went to school, we are all hokies this week. This week makes everything else seem, well, actually become, trivial. I cannot imagine how it must be to have gone to school there, to have lived in that dorm, to have taken classes in that building. What's more befuddling is how one man can have that much rage in him that he's going to kill that many people.

I also recognize the Hokie studeints that have been interviewd numereous times this week, those that say they'll go back. I don't know if I would or could go back to a place where a massacre took place less than a year prior. This heinous act of violence will forever be in my mind.

Back to Ms. Giovanni's speech. This was probably the most powerful mixture of words that I've ever heard. So simple, so eloquent. So powerful.

Thank you

We are The Hokies, We will prevail, we are Virginia Tech.

"LET'S GO HOKIES!!"

107.5 FM

Do you ever have one of those days where you know that you just can't listen to the radio? After teh Bert Show went off the air today...usually a moment that I dread...because that's the point that I get my ass in gear and start working...Well, today, I was kinda bored with their stories (Could be that they re-played some interviews from last week, but whatever.) I listened to Q100 for about 3 minutes, then tunred to the River, which I usually rest on for the day. Today, not so much though. So, I went to my car, got my FM transmitter, and am listening to my iPod. it's one of those days...not that it's bad...it's just random. I'm so glad I have my infamous "Bob" playlist (yes it has 850 songs on it, and I haven't added any in ages, he needs to be updated). It just went from cannon in D to Sarah McLachlan to Outkast. I love my randomness. In my mind, there is no radio station quite like 107.5 FM. And if you're within 50 or so feet of me, you can pick it up, too. Since your'e probably not, I guess you're stuck with other radio, however...my station grabs the best of ALL worlds.

flipping through....I didn't realize how Gavin Degraw, Collective Soul, and Better than Ezra heavy this playlist is. I need more specific playlist...yes, I have a workout one, and a study one (from those days). But this is my all-encompassing playlist....It's the envy of everybody. and should be to you.

Sorry this was just one giant synaptic misfire

iPod as a magic 8 ball--stolen from Rob

Here's a neat game...just put your iPod on shuffle and see what the next 19 songs are.


1. How are you feeling today? Better Days-Goo Goo Dolls.

Today is pretty good, aside from having nothing to do at work, it's a pretty good day. It's been close to normal today.

2. Will you get far in life? Whiter Shade of Pale - Annie Lenox (I know it's a remake)

I don't know how to take this....

3. What do your friends see you as? Magic Man-Heart

LOL. i don't think anybody would describe me as a magic man....

4. What is your best friend's theme song? Dance Dance-Fall Out Boy

Well, considering he HATES fallout boy and dancing...I'm not sure this applies...Unless he's leading a double life...hmm

5. What is the story of your life? Sister Don't Cry-Collective Soul

maybe...."So, wont you push awayAll this pain that youve been through"

6. What was high school like? Edge of 17-Stevie Nicks

Um, considering I never really dated in HS, much less an older woman...or a younger man..or really anything, maybe it foreshadowed stuff.

7. How can you get ahead in life? Sense of Danger-Presence ft. Shara Nelson

So, I DL'ed this for Mike and have never listened to it all the way through. It's techno....ugh

8. What is the best thing about your friends? To Make You Feel my Love-Josh Kelley

Yeah, i can roll with this...they offer me "warm embraces" etc.

9. What is in store for this weekend? The City-Joe Purdy

Well, I do live in Atlanta.

10. What song describes you? Look After You-The Fray

I can see this...I'm (over)-protective, to the point of being overbearing.

11. To describe your grandparents? Faces-Josh Kelley

um..no

12. How is your life going? Stolen-Dashboard Confessional

Is this a reference to my klepto disorder? "you have stolen my heart" hmmmm, for those who know teh "worst kept secret in ATL," yeah?

13. What song will they play at your funeral? Beast of Burden-Rolling Stones

Does this mean I'm gonna die fat?

14. How does the world see you? Hollywood Nights-Bob Seger

Trysts in back alleys, or the trusty woods? Or a little too tall, coulda used a few lbs?

15. Will you have a happy life? Perfect Situation-Weezer

I'm apparently in the perfect situation....I like my life so far.

16. What do your friends really think about you? Hard Times Happen-Josh Kelley

Yeah, I can see this, esp the past couple of weeks.

17. Do people secretly lust after you? Almost Honest - Josh Kelley

I don't think so...I need more of not Josh Kelley

18. How can I make myself happy? Taking Care of Business-BTO

yeah....i like this idea.

19. What should you do with your life? A Southern Thing-Better than Ezra

Rob a bank in Mobile? ok!

I can't resist these things

Your Candy Heart Says "Get Real"

You're a bit of a cynic when it comes to love.You don't lose your head, and hardly anyone penetrates your heart. Your ideal Valentine's Day date: is all about the person you're seeing (with no mentions of v-day!) Your flirting style: honest and even slightly sarcastic What turns you off: romantic expectations and "greeting card" holidays Why you're hot: you don't just play hard to get - you are hard to get

What Does Your Candy Heart Say?

ITALY!

So, I may be going to Italy in the Fall. It's in the talking stages right now, but Rob H. and I are considering going, and going to Naples, and Venice, and Sicily. And most definately eating well, and drinking a lot of wine. When in Rome ;-)

I'm super excited. As his trips seem to go, this one will be themed. A mafia theme. I'm STOKED! It's hard to focus on ANYTHING else while planning what all I want to see while there.

Jesused out.

So, I am finally back home in Atlanta from home in Rhine. I feel lik I have been at church all day. And, I have. We went to sunrise service today (at 7)...yes it was COLD. Then breakfast at church. I was fixing mom's computer, so I didn't get to go to Sunday School...But then church. which went on, and on, and on. They made me participate in a skit that I wouldn't have been caught dead in in ATL....they make me do this, sight unseen, and I felt like an idiot, then they wanted me to sing in the choir. There are limits.

I was glad to get out of church and to Granny's where I overate, go figure, and then came back finally. So glad to be back in Atlanta!

Songs...

Driving home, I get quite a lot of time to listen to songs. To REALLY listen to them. I realize that songs have completely helped me to realize that I was in love, that I'm not in love, that some people are not good for me, and some are. A couple stick out on today's journey.

The new sugarland song "Settlin'." This is one that I have heard, but do like it, a lot, and listening to it...I really love it. It says, "I ain't settlin' for just getting by, I've had enough so-so, for the rest of my life....just enough, ain't enough this time, I ain't settlin' for anything less than everything."
Basically this is my life. I am hopeless a romantic enough to think that there is that one person out there. He's just not making himself known fast enough...damnit

Also, the song "Boston" by Augustana....Talking about moving off to Boston, where no one knows her name. Just getting away and staring a new life. A clean slate. Where nobody knows my name. Find my lover and jet off to Spain.

I think I'll go to Boston, I think I'll start a new life....

I'd go to California, though.

Friends

Over the past week, I've been doing a lot of soul-searching and have just realized that I have the most amazing friends. I know that no matter what I've got a good dozen or so people that have my back, no matter what. Rob, Rob, Sam, Ben, Patti, Melissa, Mike, Brad, among MANY others. They each serve a very different purpose in my life. Some can make me smile when nothing else works, while others will sit with me and just cry and cry with me. Others will laugh at me and call me "special" when I do something ridiculously stupid, which happens pretty much constantly. These people. This handful of people, men and women. Some I've known for more than half my life. Some for less than half a year. These people. My people. I love them. Each in his or her own way. These people. They're my family. Coming from a close knit family, that means a lot to me. These people, they are my chosen family. I love them as much as I love my mother, and father, and grandmother. These people, they put up with me, with my crap, with me being dramatic, my erratic shopping trips, and my alcoholism. They keep me on a path, and make sure that I don't deviate from it (too much) and most of all, they keep me sane, happy, and most of all....they're there.

Thank you guys. I really mean it. and I love you all!

There's a quote from Dawson's Creek that I love, that's pretty long. But, every time I hear or read it, I think about my life..and how it's changed, and how it's stayed the same.

Joey: [voiceover] And now that this scared little girl no longer follows me wherever I go, I miss her. I do. 'Cause there are things I wanna tell her... to relax, to lighten up, that it is all going to be ok. I want her to know that meeting people who like you, who understand you, who actually accept you for who you are, will become an increasingly rare occurrence. Jen, Jack, Audrey, Andie, Pacey, and Dawson. These people who contributed to who I am, they are with me wherever I go, and as history gets rewritten in small ways with each passing day, my love for them only grows. Because the truth is... it was the best of times. Mistakes were made, hearts were broken, harsh lessons learned, but all of that has receded into fond memory now. How does it happen? Why are we so quick to forget the bad and romanticize the good? Maybe it's because we need to believe that the time we spent together actually meant something, that we were there for each other in a time in our lives that defined us all, a time in our lives that we will never forget. I can't swear this is exactly how it happened. But this is how it felt.